Merry Christmas!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!

What a wonderful day it is here for our family.

Of course I will go back and report on the things I can remember, I've pretty much been sedated much of the past two days due to the complications of my delivery, but I will start with this post. (Honestly, not in any rush to do so; I am am tired, my blood pressure is still high, very swollen and trying to heal and of course; wanting to spend every minute I can with my new sweet girls...when they let me)

We have been so blessed with three healthy, beautiful little girls. They are all doing fantastic. Much better than their Mommy still.

I will start with me, where I left off before delivery. I walked in to the delivery room, very, very emotional. I was not scared, I was not anxious, I was not nervous, I was totally at peace with what I had managed to do with these angels in my belly. I am so proud of how far I came carrying them and the health I provided each of them with before they took their first breaths. But what emotions I was having was the fact that we have worked so hard for these babies and now the pregnancy was going to be over and that would be that. We worked so hard at getting pregnant, staying pregnant and now here we were about to become a family of FIVE!!!! I just was like, this is the last night I was pregnant, the last time I was dressed with my big belly, the last waddle down the hall....those things going all through my mind.

Once I walked into the delivery room and sat down, I was a little more at ease. Everyone was so sweet and nice. They let me just cry and get comfy. I told them I was a little scared for the spinal and they comforted me so sweetly. The anesthesiologist was so sweet too, he kept his arm on me to let me know he was right there the whole time.

The spinal was simple. I was really surprised, it was nothing like I thought. No big deal at all. I couldn't believe it, and it made me relax even more, because I really thought that would be the worst part...so the rest must be a piece of cake right?!? LOL.

I laid down, my doctor came in, we talked, it was very comfortable. I totally felt the numbing starting to work, but in a very slight way, not in over-kill, like I had imagined it to be. It was nice and slow. The sheet went up, the cleaning stuff on my belly, Tim came in and they got ready. Basically, they said, ok, here we go and that was that. I never even felt one moment of nerves or anxiety.

Within minutes, I heard Madelynn cry, and tears instantly filled my eyes. Our first daughter was alive and breathing. What a beautiful sound. Thank you Jesus! Within seconds, Claire came out, no problems at all, flew right out, but had no intentions of wanting to breath on her own. Then, our third daughter, Natalee came out from her little sack. She came out the hardest because she was all the way deep, back inside of me. Her head stuck in my back and ribs....geeze I could have guessed that! She was the smallest though, which we knew. All healthy and alive, breathing as well as they could.

Once the babies were out, three minutes total to take them all, the complications begun. I smelled the burning of my insides, hearing the doctors talk about all the bleeding. They asked Tim to sit down and not look anymore. He asked if I was ok, I was fine. The shaking began, I couldn't control that, it was completely involuntary, but the worst shakes of your life, just imagine. The pressure in my head, the back and top of my spinal column was unbearable. I had to focus on not focusing on it, while everyone was taking so long. Even I really had no recollection of how long it was taking. All I knew later on, was the babies took three minutes to take out and I was in surgery for another hour and half after they were born, and then took another trip back to the OR after that.

More to come...