Saturday, April 20, 2013: 32w2d: Always a Day to Remember!

With my pregnancy with Emily and now with Anna-Kate, 32w2d, marks a very special day to me. It was the day my pregnancy came to an end with the girls. It was a day that I thought perhaps I may never know the feeling of being pregnant ever again, surely not ever with triplets. I remember my feelings and emotions that day like it was yesterday. I remember crying hysterically and apologizing to the nurses and the anesthesiologist. 

Here's my 32-Week post when I was pregnant with Emily. My 32w2d Delivery Day post with the triplets, the photos are missing for some reason, so here they are, just in case you are a new reader or your forgot how much of a swollen, bloated whale I was at 200lbs the day I delivered the girls. Phew!!! Seriously, I don't think the photos do any justice to the way I was feeling, how big I really was, and how swollen my body was!

I don't think I have ever posted this photo...because I'm in my underwear, but really it's no different than a bathing-suit, so sorry if you have a problem with it! We were trying to get a Christmas card photo and I was hoping to not even have to put pants on, so we were trying to get the light right and such, so I just started playing around while Tim was getting the camera, lighting and everything ready...and I am so glad I have it, even as blurry as it is. I think it shows just how big I was six days before the girls were born.

That is one BIG belly...and my terb pump in my leg.

And now being 32w2d with Anna, I have mixed emotions once again. I know, for sure, that this is my last and final pregnancy, birth and baby. To an extent of course that does make me a little sad. I'm only 27 years old and to be done with pregnancies and births and babies, seems crazy, but I am so blessed to have a beautiful, healthy family; and that is really what matters the most to me. It seems that only a few short years ago, I was crying in my husbands lap, saying I would never be a mother, and yet I had no idea what God had planned for me. Tim and I have been so blessed to be able to have our children so close together and while we are young, which we are very thankful for. Lord, I don't know if I could have handled triplets, or 5 girls under 2.5 years old if I started having children at 35 years old. I am very thankful we are young and have the energy to care and run after our beautiful daughters. And, not to mention, enjoy life with them as adults with their families and children, God willing.

So as sad as I am to see my child-bearing years to come to an end, I am eagerly excited to meet Little Miss Anna-Kate in just 6.5 weeks. That seems crazy to think and say, but no matter what she will be here before June 6th! I am just trying to enjoy the last few weeks I have of being pregnant, feeling a life that my husband and I created inside my body. All the feelings, thoughts and emotions that come with being pregnant. Having that big belly stretched to it's max. Being uncomfortable and tired, it's all for such a short amount of time and so worth every moment. There are moments when I don't believe that this "is it", but be assured it is. By the end of the summer, we will have 200% protection against ever having another child, with a vasectomy and a hysterectomy, all within a few months of each other. 

On one aspect, I really want the induction on June 5th, but to be honest it does make me a little sad that I could have up to 2 more weeks of being pregnant that I am missing out on, with my very last pregnancy. I am choosing convenience over my own emotions, and I guess for good reasons. The sooner AK is born, the sooner I can start healing and preparing for the bigger issue on the table, no pun intended. I need to get those pre-cancer cells out of me asap! And, we have a very, very busy June planned with vacations, family visits, baby showers for my SIL, and much more, so having Anna-Kate be here already would be less stressful than just waiting for her and possibly missing out on some great family fun. So, I know the induction will happen, but I cant say I'm not a little sad that those last two weeks of pregnancy will never happen. If I had it my way, I would go into labor on my own before the induction and know it was meant to be...you hear that Anna-Kate...come out on your own and make your momma happy, happy, happy!

However, I must note that I am excited to start getting rid of stuff that comes along with little itty-bitty babies! All the bouncy seats, snap-and-go, breast pump, bottles, infant car seat...and clothes galore! I will have multiple closets and bins opened up and free of space! Whahoo, that makes me happy! More room to store "bigger girl" things. Ya know, barbies, dolls, doll houses, barbie houses, sports equipment, the list could go on and on with all the stuff that we already have and I freaks me out to think of all the stuff we will accumulate over the next few decades of raising little girls.

It's just on to the next chapters of raising our beautiful family after Anna-Kate joins us! I am glad to make it passed 32w2d and onto having a healthy, full-term baby girl!