Hoping and Praying for so Many Firsts!

I started thinking the other day about how many "firsts" we are getting to have with this little miracle baby girl this time around and what we are hoping and praying for!!

This was my first pregnancy getting pregnant "on our own"! A true miracle!

This is my first pregnancy with just one baby! So different!

This is my first pregnancy after our beautiful triplet girls and even though Tim would like to demand it's our last, I don't think it will be! :)
I hope and pray I will make it to 40 weeks pregnant, a first!

I hope and pray I will be able to have a VBAC, a first!

I hope and pray my body, mind and soul can take labor and all it demands...a first!

I hope and pray I will get a "normal" delivery (however way) with no complications, a first!
I hope and pray my little girl will be healthy and not need any support to breath or sustain life....a first!
I hope and pray that I will get to keep my new beautiful precious baby girl in my hospital room with ME at every single moment...a first.
I hope and pray I get to have a normal hospital stay with visitors coming and going.
I hope and pray I get to leave the hospital WITH my new baby girl when I AM DISCHARGED...a BIG first!! I never, ever, ever want to leave the hospital again without my baby! No mother should EVER have to go through that enormous amount of heartbreaking pain.

I hope and pray we come home, as a brand new family of SIX, all together, with a healthy newborn that's only a few days old...a BIG first! We have never brought home a "newborn" baby that's only a few days old!

I hope and pray that I am the one giving the first bath, the first bottle, the first EVERYTHING, and no one else will be taking care of my baby! (Not that I am not thankful for the NICU and all the wonderful nurses and dcotors who cared for my sweet baby girls, but I have a lot of regret and guilt for not caring my girls longer to have been able to take them home with ME and do all their firsts just with myself and their Daddy! It's a very hard and emotional battle with myself that I go through daily, and mabye more since I am pregnant and anticipating this delivery/birth. I just want those memories that I missed with my baby girls and not to be sad about missing those memories anymore.)

I hope and pray I don't go through the horrible beyond belief emotional roller-coaster of post-partum depression with nothing but tears, tears, tears for weeks on end because the children I have carried for months on end and fought so hard for, are stuck without their Momma and a Momma who's stuck without her heart in her body. I just so badly, with all that I am, want it to be normal this time...a first!
I hope and pray for all these firsts that God has and is allowing me to have this time around. He is too good to me and I praise and thank Him each day!