Oncology Update

So I know it's been awhile since I have updated on what will be going on with my surgery to remove possible cancerous cells in my cervix. The reality is, not much has changed. I went to see the oncologist 6 weeks after my c-section and he was just as cold and mean as the first time I met with him. I really cannot stand him but I don't have much choice.

My dad came with me since I had to bring Anna too, I needed someone to watch her and frankly I wanted someone for some moral support too, since Tim had to stay at home and watch the other girls. My dad and I are really close, so it was great to have him there with me. 

After waiting over 2.5 hours (!!!!) to see the doctor, he finally came in and quickly and briefly stated that because I am breast-feeding, I am producing little or no estrogen and therefore it's like I am in menopause and therefore he can't get a good assessment of what's going on and where to go. Really, I was totally bummed and very upset that I had drove an hour, waited 2.5 hours and now it was after 6:30pm and that's all. He was so rude, but I kept telling myself that I have heard good things about him as a doctor and not to let his lack of personality affect me. He reluctantly said he would, "take a look" but that it was too soon to do anything. 

So we went into another room and he started to do a colposcopy. He then started scrapping, and scrapping and scrapping, while telling me that, "all the cervical skin is just falling off". I asked if that was normal for after you have a baby and he said, "sometimes". Thanks for the answer, doc. Then after I was was cringing and practically screaming with tears in my eyes, he stopped and got a different tool and stated that he was going to take some biopsies. I was glad on one hand because I was there and I wanted some answers but the pain was almost unbearable. Of course I was laying down, but I started seeing stars and I knew it wasn't too long until I was going to pass out. The room was SO hot. After he finished, which seemed like forever, he joked and said, "I guess I shouldn't drop this specimen on the floor", I guess implying that I was such a baby about the whole thing. Like I said, he and I are not on good terms. I looked at the cup of specimen he took and it was like at least a 1/2 cup of fluid, skin, cells, blood..whatever. I couldn't believe how much it was. 

When he left the room, I sat in almost tears. I was in so much pain, so hot and so mad that he was such a jerk. My dad came in and we talked while I collected myself while bending over the cold air-conditioning. Even my dad thought he was an idiot and was surprised at his lack of care.

So all in all, he told me to call in two weeks for my results and then come back either when I stop breast-feeding or when it's been four more months. I left completely pissed off.

My dad and I went to dinner and I took this cute photo of Anna. She loved having some one on one time with her grandpa!

I absolutely love this outfit on her!

I waited those two weeks and finally called for my results last Friday. The nurse looked up my name, paused and said, "hold on". That didn't leave me with a good feeling and of course I thought the worse. She came back on the phone and said that she needed to make me an appointment to be seen so the doctor could explain the results to me. Again, enter sheer panic. I was shocked and I asked if she could give me some information on what the results stated, specifically if it was cancer. I told her a little bit about my background and she finally told me that it was high grade lesions/cells, only in the cervix. I told her this is what it's been and asked repeatedly if anything had changed to cancer and she said, "no". I was so happy to hear. She said I still needed to make an appointment though so we scheduled one. I told her that the doctor said I didn't need to come back for 4 months but she made me make an appointment anyway. Whatever, fine. A few minutes later she called back and stated that she had just talked with the doctor and showed him my results and he stated that I needed to be seen "right away". Again, I was shocked and really wondering why things had changed so fast. There weren't any appointments available for "right away" and the soonest appointment was the one that I had already scheduled. She put me at the top of the waiting list for soonest available appointment and would call if anything changed.

So, as of now my appointment is in about two weeks, July 30th. I am pretty sure he will want to do a cone biopsy but the one thing about that procedure that makes me nervous is the fact that it makes it harder to identify abnormal cells in the future so that doesn't give me much confidence that if the cancerous cells came back, they would find them right away, and that scares me. Who knows. I will update more after my appointment on July 30th when hopefully I have some answers.

Thank you to those who are keeping me and my family in your prayers. It's always appreciated and we are so thankful to have such a wonderful support system!