Update/Results

I don't know what else to call this post, but an update, so that's what I am calling it. 

First, once again, thank you so much to so many of you (on blogger and not) who have reached out to me and our family. Your words mean more to me than I can explain. I appreciate each and every one of you and your thoughts and prayers for me and our family. 

Yesterday, I finally caved and called the OB. Ya know, not to beg for results (okay, maybe a little!) but because I needed a prescription refill called in. So, I left a message. Not even five minutes later the number showed up on my caller ID. Thank goodness Tim was sitting there. I said, "oh goodness, it's Capital Women's Care!" I picked up and the first thing I heard was that it was, in fact, Dr. A. My heart literally sank. I was so scared. He has NEVER called, always the nurse. I knew right then and there. He said that he had received my results the day before and was searching to find an oncologist for me to go to that took my insurance. My heart sank even more. In those few seconds, maybe a minute, I thought the absolute worse.

Then he slowly started explaining to me what the pap smear said. He told me the cells and the lesions that he found. He explained to me that it still is high-grade pre-cancerous cells and lesions, and told me the differences between the ones that were found. He explained to me that apparently what they are also finding are cells and lesions that are supposed to grow inside the cervix, not on the outside. He said he didn't know if this was because I am currently pregnant or not. He said it is concerning and he wants me to see a gynocological oncologist as soon as I could. 

Numerous times he talked about terminating the pregnancy, which would of course result in a live birth at this point...but still using the word, terminating..not so comforting! Even though this is still an option, it doesn't look like it will be any time in the next few weeks, AMEN! Every week that goes by is a true miracle....and I have been down this road before with the triplets. I asked him about getting the lung shot for AK and he said that would probably happen. I really think that helped the girl's lungs be as strong as they were for 32w2d at delivery. They barely had any respiratory issues, thank God! I started receiving the lung shots at 26 weeks, I believe, up until the night before delivery. 

So basically, I could very well be having AK early if the pernatologist and oncologist believe it is the right thing to do. There will be A LOT of questions asked to both of them. Most likely either the oncologist or my OB will do colposcopies with pap smears and/or biopsies every month until AK is born and of course if at any time it comes back cancer, we go from there. If it still stays the same, then we make plans to do something after AK is born. Very soon after.

I feel good about where I am now. I feel good about the knowledge I have gained over the last two weeks from help of family members, doctors in other areas and my own research. I feel like I know more and I have more under control. 

I was so worried about having to deliver AK so soon, but I just don't think that is what's going to happen in the next four to six weeks. AMEN!

So, my appointment with the gynocological oncologist is on Tuesday evening. I have my list of questions I am preparing and hoping to get some more answers. 

Again, thank you so much for the prayers and thoughts! I so appreciate it! I will update again on Tuesday evening or Wednesday morning.