12 Weeks / 3 Months!!!

Wow, I have made it to 12 weeks...whahoo. Such an accomplishment. I am right on the verge of the second trimester, which blows my mind. This pregnancy is flying by, I guess because I won't be pregnant for 40 weeks, probably not even 35 weeks, so the end is already in sight, and all the exciting things are coming quickly.
How Far Along: 12 weeks! 3 Months!

How big are the babies: They are each the size of plums, (2.1 inches). As you move into the second trimester, the babies are shifting into the growth and maturation stage. After weeks in the critical development stage, almost all of baby's systems are fully formed. (thebump.com)

Weight Gain: Still the same, around 126 lbs. Just depends on the time of day I weight myself, so I am anywhere between 126 lbs. and 130 lbs.!

Symptoms: Nausea, vomiting (only once in the last week), peeing a lot, CONSTIPATION, headaches, hunger...I think that's all. My nausea is improving so much, it's awesome! Last week, I started only taking one zofran in the morning and didn't need another one the rest of the day, which is such an improvement! I tried not taking it at all one day and by lunch I was sick, so I am sticking with the one in the am and then not taking the other unless I need it. But I have been noticing that when I really try to stuff myself, like at every meal, I wind up feeling terrible, like my stomach is going to pop! No fun!

Emotions: Scared this week. I woke up one night and was peeing and it hit me again about these three human beings, I had to stop myself from another panic attack. I am just really scared. Scared that I won't be able to carry them until they are healthy enough for life, that I will have a lot of complications towards the end or at birth, that I will grow to unimaginable sizes...just everything. I really am not scared about bringing them home. I know how to care for a baby, Lord knows I have had A LOT of practice of the years, I am just scared about getting there. This is no one's body but my own and I am really scared right now!

Also, my insurance ran out from grad school so I had to do a "conversion packet" to keep the one I had, which is going to cost me a whooping $450.00 bucks per month!!! No plan or company will pick me up because of my pre-existing condition, meaning pregnancy. Gee, love our system. I can't even get the state health insurance because we make too much, so basically I am SO, and have no choice but keep the one I have and pay an arm and a leg for it. I am very thankful that it is GREAT coverage, I mean they paid for my entire IVF package without blinking an eye, and I am forever grateful, and then I was only paying $131.00 per month. I just went through a lot of emotions regarding all of this, and a lot of tears. Being a social worker, I see people getting free stuff (health care, disability, food stamps, ect) all of the time and they smoke crack, go to jail or have 10 kids...but yet my husband and I, who are hard workers, good citizens and try to always do the right things in life, can't get shit because "they" say we make too much. I laugh at that. We reward people for doing the wrong things in life and yet everyone is ok with that. I hate the welfare system, and since I understand it, that is my opinion. Help the poor, take from the rich, ignore the middle class. Lovely system we have here!!

So right now, we are at a loss of what to do. We are so devastated. Our rent is so high, because we live in MOCO, our electric is $300 bucks a month because this house sucks all the air in the summer and all the heat in the winter (winter it's $500), we need a van, our car insurance, health insurance, it's all just too much right now. I don't know where to turn. We are trying everything we can and going over every option. Maybe I should go pan-handle to make some money, seems to work for a lot of others! (Sorry for the rant, but this is my blog and these are my feelings right now, and how my husband and I are suffering.)

Something Funny that Happened: Can't think of anything, other than the random women (who I don't even know, but friends of friends have told them) coming up to me at the pool, saying, "Oh I heard, you are pregnant with triplets....do you need anything, I have...blah, blah, blah..." SO NICE!

Best Moment of the Week: Seeing all my family over the weekend since I became pregnant, everyone asked lots of questions and to see everyone excited too made my day!

Movement: None yet, just stretching and very crampy, daily! I read in my new" twins, triplet and more" book that contractions will be pretty regular all throughout my pregnancy and I also read that the babies will move even earlier than a singleton pregnancies, so in the coming weeks, I hope I can experience that!

Maternity Clothes: Of course, expect my bathing suit I can still wear, however I wonder if people just think I'm fat or really realize I'm pregnant at the pool.

Stretchmarks: Nope.

Sleep: Ok, just peeing a lot through the night.

Food Cravings: Nothing this week. I read that need to be consuming 500 calories per baby, and another 2000 on top of that, for a total of 3500 calories per day. I should be gaining a pound per week and a pound and a half from 20 weeks on. Whooooo! The more I can eat the better the babies will be, in weight and health at birth and also for preventing pre-term labor.

Gender Predictions: I had the most real dream that we did in fact have two girls and one boy. It was so real, when I woke up, I couldn't believe that it was actually not real, I looked around the bedroom and confirmed no babies yet...so we'll see, but it really convinced me. I still think that's what they are! I CANNOT WAIT TO FIND OUT WHAT THEY ARE AND TO OFFICIALLY NAME THEM!!!!!!!!

What I Miss: Nothing.

What I am Looking Forward to: Seeing the babies next week....seems like forever between these appointments and so excited for Tim and possibly my mom to be able to see them and how much they will have grown!!!

Weekly Wisdom: Eat, eat, eat...LOL!

Questions: None this week.

Here's the baby bump photo of the week...