I guess I should get used to eating a jar of pickles in one sitting...

I mean, if you know me, you know I love pickles and eating A LOT of pickles is not that big of a deal but I have heard that you should watch your salt intake when your...

PREGNANT!!

That's right, after our first attempt at IVF....

WE ARE HAVING A BABY (OR TWO, OR EVEN MAYBE THREE)!!!!!!!!

I AM PREGNANT!!

I cannot believe it! I have been in so much pain the past few days that they moved up my blood test from Monday to Friday. Then yesterday, the pain got even worse and I started vomiting. Nurse My Favorite and Dr. Stillman were getting very concerned and wanted to get the blood test asap, so that when it came back negative (or not), I could stop the drugs immediately that were causing the pain. The pain has been unbearable. It's all because of one thing:

ENDOMETRIOSIS

That lovely disease that attacks organs and the abdominal cavity (or even the brain) and causes so much pain and discomfort. In my body, because I have Stage IV (severe), my abdominal cavity is full of endometriosis, so because my uterus is now growing (at a rapid rate) it is aggravating all of the endometriosis which it's surrounded in. So when I eat, it's painful since my stomach expands and pushes against everything. UGH...it's a never ending battle and it will be for the next few months. They already said, this will not be an easy pregnancy in the beginning. 

That's ok. As bad as the pain is, it's all worth it now. I am pregnant. Holy crap! 

This morning, not an ounce of me thought that I would be pregnant today. I didn't take my Estrace or my Progesterone. I brought my calender with me so that I could start penciling in my next cycle. I was so depressed. I put my arm out to get my blood drawn and almost started crying. I wanted to cringe at the other people in the waiting room. I thought well I guess I will be the next RESOLVE leader for Rockville (the current leader just became pregnant after 5 IVF cycles and I said that I would love to volunteer) because I know wouldn't be pregnant.

I went back to my Mom's house, so that I could get the bad news there and around 9:15 I saw "Shady Grove Fertility Clinic" light up on my phone and I thought, here we go. Nurse My Favorite said "Hi Holly"...."It's positive"..."It's REALLY positive"! I literally grabbed the garage door and mom started screaming. I don't even know what came out of my mouth other than crying and screaming and oh my gosh, all in about five minutes. I started shaking. I could barley control myself. I just kept asking, "what's my number, what's my number"? My HCG number, well it was...

641

Yes, 641...the normal for a "day 15" after fertilization should be around 130 or so. Me---641!!!!!!! She then went on to say, "we can almost assume multiples here".

Ummm.....wait, are we still talking about me? My belly? My babies?

OH MY GOSH!

The rest of the day was a blur, between my episodes of severe pain and nausea, I was calling everyone I knew, I'm sure the mailman heard me screaming. I was shaking for two hours. I still cannot believe it. We are in such disbelief. Tim thought I was joking, he heard me crying and thought I was going to say it's negative, but boy was he wrong. All I wanted to do was hug him. I couldn't let go of him for an hour. I think he's already kissed my belly a hundred times just since he got home from work. Sweet man, he will make a wonderful daddy.

My stomach is SO sore! I am SO bloated. It feels like someone has taken a rubber-band from the top of my chest and pulled it down and it won't go anymore...the stretching is really weird. I want to "pop" my stomach already...that's what makes me think that we have more then one little one in there.

And I have to take the pain meds every 4 hours or I'm back on the bed in a fetal position rocking back and forth. I managed to eat three meals today and not vomit, so that was a successful day.

We just had dinner with my Mom and Dad and they along with Tim enjoyed a bottle of champagne, while I had ginger ale. I wanted to come home and finally take that pregnancy test and actually see two lines pop up FOR REAL...and within 2 seconds the line was there, brighter than the freakin' test line. I just can't stop starring at it. Tim was like "let me see it, let me see it"...haha, I'm like "do you want to take it for show and tell tomorrow with the guys"? He's so funny!

So, after 13 months, we are finally pregnant!!! Next beta on Friday and then another on Monday. First sonogram is at 6 weeks. Today I am offically 4w1d...AMAZING. Simply amazing.

Oh, God is good!