One Year Ago...

Time flies.

One year ago today

April 11, 2010

IVF Cycle Day 1.

Pheeeewwww.

Suddenly
I am hearing that song... "a whole new world..."!

Unbelievable.

I started reading back at some of the posts that I had written last April and May. I can feel the pain I was going through each and every day, not knowing what the future would hold and if I ever was going to be able to give my husband a child. I wanted it to happen so bad, but God did it the way He wanted and I am so glad He did.

This past weekend, Tim and I caught up on a show we love, Gulianna and Bill. I love them. They went through IVF and became pregnant with twins but then lost the pregnancy and then did a second round with no success. I cried and cried through the whole show. I couldn't help but think how blessed we were to be sitting there on a Saturday night snuggled on the couch with our three little peanuts. We are so lucky and I cannot thank God enough.

Some days I wonder how I deserved such a wonderful life. I find it hard to believe God had such a wonderful plan for me. I know I should never doubt His plan but during times of hardship, it's easy to do.

I don't miss those days of wondering when or if, but I wouldn't take them back for anything.

All those shots, prayers, tears and doctors appointments made me a mother.

What I always dreamed of.

I thank God every day for the blessings He has given me.

I can't believe it's been a whole year. Last year, I had no idea what would happen. I had no idea what IVF was like. I had no idea what carrying multiples would be like. I had no idea of would become the proud mother of beautiful and healthy triplet girls. 

Today, Tim and I took the girls for a walk, as most days now.

It's 86 degree here and beautiful.

However, the humidity this morning at 4:45am was 93%!

I hate summers in Maryland, but I love having four full different seasons.

The price to pay.

The girls got to wear a super cute outfit that our wonderful friends, Kristin, Jeff and their beautiful 3 girls got us. I didn't think the girls would be able to wear them but they fit in them perfectly and I think we'll be able to get a month or so out of them.

Here's just a few of the couple hundred photos we took tonight. The girls are just so darn cute, I just snap away and then look down and I've taken over two hundred! Ha!

Claire is on left, Natalee in middle and Madelynn on right!

 Claire

 Natalee

ALL SMILES!!!!!!!!

 Madelynn

 Claire is farthest, Natalee in middle, and Madelynn closest.

I caught Claire grabbing Madelynn's shirt..she's been grabbing onto things lately...so it looks like since she is grabbing Madelynn's shirt, Madelynn's thinking, ok I'll get your hair Claire! I love their expressions!

 Save me Mom!

Piggy Toes!!!!

 Natalee

Natalee

Ok, picture overlaod...but I love these little beauties!

LIFE IS GOOD!

How Quickly Life Can Change

(I had to post about this. I had to write about this. I am heart broken for this woman and her family.)

October 7 th --

I watched the news footage live of you being taken out of your car in that intersection, and hearing that the poor woman who was in the car, so badly destroyed, was a pregnant woman with twins and my heart ached for that woman. I couldn’t imagine and I silently prayed for her and her unborn babies.

October 14 th --

A few days later I heard on the news that that same woman and her husband had lost of on the twins and my heart ached even more. I couldn’t believe it and my husband and I prayed for your family over dinner that evening. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I kind of knew that person.

Today --

I wondered why you hadn’t been blogging, but never did I think I would read what I read this morning. I sat here sobbing after the first paragraph because suddenly I knew the poor woman in that car, the woman I have been praying for each night. Words can’t describe the heartache I have for you and your loved ones. I am speechless. I can’t imagine what you are going through. Life can change in an instant.

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This is so hard. This poor woman. This poor family. Those poor little miracle babies. I am numb over this. Anything can happen in an instant. Never did I think in a million years that the woman whose blog I read each day, her getting ready for twin boys, me getting ready for triplet girls, (both conceived from IVF) and then suddenly it's gone in an instant, something you had no control over.

We all think we're invincible sometimes, that life is just given to us, but it is not. You go the mall just to pick something up, you drop something off at the post office and then something happens, you turn your head for a minute, you go to bed mad...whatever it may be, you never know.

I know God had a higher plan for this woman's son. I believe that, I have to, it's the only way I can somewhat comprehend it. Bu still I cannot imagine what she must be going through. How do you go home to a nursery full of stuff for twins? How do you move on from loosing a child? I can't begin to imagine, my heart just hurts for all those that have had to go through it. You are much strong women then I could ever be.

Please send some love to this woman and her family. Please, I ask you to pray for her.

http://adventuresinbabymakin.blogspot.com/

My First Baby Gift!

Last night I went to babysit a family that I have become closer with over the past few months; they have three beautiful children. When I first walked in, the oldest son, who is 5, said, "I will be careful with you," as he put his hand on my belly. Sooo sweet!

Then the other little boy says, "we have something for you," and runs away. He brings back this little outfit that I almost melted at, and says, "this is for your babies".

I was so touched! My first real/new baby gift! It was so nice of them! I will not get used to people just buying me things, however, it is so wonderful and I am so grateful!

Let's hope there's a girl in there somewhere!!!

Tim was asleep when I came home so I cannot wait to show him this little newborn outfit when he gets home today! It's crazy to think but our babies probably won't even fit into newborn clothing when they are born, preemie is more likely going to be what they are wearing for the first few weeks, since they will be so small.

On another note, and someone doing something so nice for me...I joined the Montgomery County Parents of Multiples, which has sooo many services and resources for parents, it's such a lifesaver and I haven't even begun! A bunch of other Moms Of Multiples (MOMS) recommended a book about triplets that I wasn't able to find anywhere so on the "Lender Library" through MOM's I asked if I could borrow it and not only did the lady say yes, she insisted in bringing it to my house, even after assuring her I could pick it up. She wouldn't listen, and said this is what she does as being in charge of the Lender Library! Ok, then! Sooo nice, again!

I think I could get used to all this, but of course thanking God everyday for his strenght, wisdom, guidance, love, support to help me carry these babies day after day. I couldn't do it without my love for God. I trust him and he knows my needs. These small tokens are so appreciated and just reassure me that God is listening to my every need.