Our {Choo Choo} Wagon!

About a month ago I finally got to get the girls a Choo Choo Wagon from another set of triplets and I was so excited! I had seen so many other moms of multiples have this wagon and to say I was a bit jealous was an understatement, especially if you have ever pushed a 68 pound {w/o kids in it} quad stroller around full of kids for more than five minutes, you would understand! IT'S FREAKIN' HEAVY!!!!

The weather around here in Maryland has been super crazy, to say the least. One day it's 19 degrees and snowing and the next it's 70 degrees and we have severe thunderstorms with tornado watches. Weird. I totally prefer the 19 degree and LOTS of snow...but I do enjoy the warmer weather because that means we can get outside! And finally that day arrived the other day.

Their names are NOT written on the side of the cars... JUST AN FYI on who is who!

The girls had SO.MUCH.FUN in their new wagon! They kept saying, "choo choo" and "yet's go Momma" if I would stop for a minute to catch my breath. 

Then we went for a longer walk around the neighborhood {because Daddy was done washing the cars and could pull} and as always we were a spectacle. People honking their horns, pointing at us and stopping us to talk. It's okay sometimes but until you experience it {whenever you leave the house} you don't know how it feels to have people stare like were a freak show. Of course some people, {as I've stated before} are sweet and just super nice and caring and others just stare like they've never seen a two year old before. Trust me, it can get very rude, very fast, and I must say, I have a hard time smiling and ignoring {sometimes}. Especially when it comes to rude and annoying questions, like, "why are you having more children?" SERIOUSLY? Or "were they IVF?", and of course my all time favorite {which I have always mentioned} "you must have lots of help?" Like any of it is any of your business!?! I know people probably don't intentionally mean to be rude and stare, but it happens all the time and it's really hard to ignore {at times}. I can't imagine what it would be like to have sextuplets or more and go out... I really worry about what my girls will think about people starring at them when they get a little bit older. I will have to bite my tongue and teach them the proper ways to react, and of course to never stare at others because it's RUDE {whether you are curious or not}!

Anyway, we had a blast in our new choo choo wagon and unfortunately we know it will cause a scene where ever we go, but we are learning to dealing with it. {I can't wait to take them to see the Easter bunny in the mall in their choo choo wagon...HAHA!}

Okay, enough ranting for the day....got to go get to all that laundry piled up!

Ugh! The Need for Sleep!!!

Last night was the first night I attempted sleep without the help of my beloved sleeping pill. I really want to be a big girl and stop using it but every time I have tried in the past six years, I fail. Because this drug is not a sleep-aid, but an anti-depressant, with an "off-label" to help insomnia, it is not one of the worse things you can do in pregnancy. But of course, I don't want to put any harm to the babies in their further growth, so even though the OB says it'd ok, but my prescribing doctor, says no, I will be trying my hardest to make this work.

As I lay in bed listening to Tim sleep, I am flooded with emotions....so jealous that he can sleep, why can't I be normal and just flipin' go to sleep, I could sleep all day if I wanted to and then when it's finally dark I can't sleep at all...UGH! Benadryl doesn't do anything, and melatonin, I will try tonight, but I do not have high hopes! Because I can't sleep, I twist and turn, pee every 45 minutes because I can't stop thinking about having to pee, I am just so restless, I can feel my body not being able to relax. Finally, I took some Tylenol and it helped relax me, so I could get a few minutes of sleep, but at 6:00am sharp, 4 hours exactly after taking it, I was wide awake! Wait, not wide awake...awake and pissed off, and so tired of not being able to sleep!!!

Today, I feel horrible. I want to lay here and nap all day since I really have noting to do but I know that won't help me for later tonight. My nausea feels worse today because I think I am just so tired and restless. It's way too hot to go outside and I already decided I wasn't cooking dinner tonight, instead left overs. The laundry is done, the house is in order and clean...what's a girl to do???! I feel like I have read every book I have already and my bed rest hasn't even begun.

I'm bored, lonely and tired. Blah.  I trust that with the help of the Lord I will be able to get through this struggling time. Only he knows my inner-most strenghts and weaknesses, and will carry me through this. I can do it and I will.