Transfer Day!! (5 dpf)

Today was a beautiful day!!

First, here are the sweet miracle babies that are in my belly this evening and hopefully for nine more months!

I woke up this morning hoping that today would be the first day of my nine wonderful months of pregnancy! We can only wait and see. My mom, dad, sister, Tim and I all went to the clinic today around 12:30pm. Only my mom and Tim were able to be in the room (the weekend staff is NOT nearly as nice as the regular staff) while they did the actual transfer.

I'm really glad that I took the advice of some of my friends from RESOLVE and did not drink a lot of Gatorade before the procedure (even though they ask for a full bladder). I was comfortable and not freaking out about going to the bathroom, which made me feel relaxed.

The Dr. Not So Nice was saying that we had two really good and healthy embryos but that they were only going to put in one...SAY WHAT?

HOLD UP!

She even said, "Dr. Stillman would not want to hear that you had two put in.....there are so many more complications with twins.....you will have a 2% chance of having triplets....here let me give you the stats...."

BLAH, BLAH...I wasn't hearing any of it. My babies, my money, my time, my decision...

PUT THEM BOTH IN!

She was not happy with the decision, but I didn't care at all what she thought. Her professional opinion is one thing, but you have to remember the only statistics that fertility clinics want is "singleton" pregnancies. Twins and multiple births are not good for their statistics, so they really stress against more then one embryo is under 37 years old.

Getting ready!

So as of right now, our chance of pregnancy is 62%, the chance of twins is 51% and the chance of triplets is 2%. She thought she could stress me out and change my mind...HA, she doesn't know who I am! We'll take our 2% chance of triplets...I am confident God won't give us anything we couldn't handle, so if it's meant to be then so be it. 

So, I layed back and they started. It was simply amazing; when they put them in, we saw them float right to the top of my uterus. It was like two little angels floating in and settling in. My mom even started crying. It was just so amazing. I will never forget that.

Future Grandma...hopefully

Mommy and Daddy to be...hopefully!

I really thought that the mock embryo transfer was more painful, I guess because they put a lot more fluid in the uterus then.

We came home and the bed rest began. I guess the fact that I have to stay in bed, makes it more difficult because any other day I would be glad to take a nap and do nothing. Today, I have already been so bored. However, tomorrow I plan on watching The Hallmark Channel all day and catching up on some sweet movies since their having a marathon of movies. Going to also make some phone calls that our very overdue to some family members that are dying to hear how this all has gone.

Oh, and my bed mate all day....

Tobie...with his momma

Day 3 (3dpf)

Today is Day 3...supposedly it was Transfer Day today because the babies weren't doing so well, however Nurse My Favorite called me early this morning and said we are back on for a Day 5 Transfer!!!!! The 8 babies are all at 8 cell with 0% fragmentation!! I am so so happy because yesterday they were all 10% fragmented! I was literally in tears when I heard this news today. I was so upset and depressed yesterday when I found out they weren't as perfect as we hoped but I prayed that they would be strong and make it through. God always answers prayers.

I couldn't sleep all night and I was tossing and turning just thinking about them and hoping they were doing well and they were! I cannot wait to see pictures of them on Sunday! SO exciting. This whole process really makes you aware of the whole "conception of life" miracle and just how much of a miracle life really is!

I am ecstatic! Yay for our 8 beautiful and strong babies!!

8 Still Holding On..

Yesterday didn't go quite as well as I thought after I blogged. I layed down and was in a lot of pain for the rest of the day. My stomach was SO bloated and full of air that it looked like I was four months pregnant already. I haven't had any bloating at all until after the retrieval and still today it looks a little better but not too much. I was SO nauseous yesterday and when I finally couldn't take it anymore, I called Nurse My Favorite and she called me in a scrip for Zofran. That little pill helped sooo much and I was able to eat dinner and go to bed.

I did manage to work today, but I am home resting as of right now before going out a little later to run some errands and a quick Dr.'s appt.

Ok, so about the babies...

Today we have 8 embryos still fighting for a chance. I have to say, I am a little concerned because they are not "beautiful" embryos, they are "just alright". When Nurse My Favorite said that, I said what do you mean they are "just alright"? She said that they are all between 2 and 8 cells and all are 10% fragmented. Of course I did not want to hear that my babies were anything but perfect and beautiful; but this is the reality. In a "perfect" embryo, 8 cells and 0% fragmentation is the best and they grade them as an A. Well there are plenty of women who get these grade A embryos and still do not have children and they are plenty of women with fragmented embryos and even "poor quality" embryos and they still go on to have beautiful, perfect children. That's the thing, there is nothing to say what's better or what's not as good, everything is just up to the make-up of that particular embryo.

I am a little concerned but I didn't have my retrieval until 1:30 on Tuesday and Nurse My Favorite was already calling me with my Day 2 Update at 9:50am this morning. My embryos haven't even been out for 48 hours, so they really are right on target; and they shouldn't be giving me a Day 2 Update when it hasn't even been two days yet. I know so many people have told me that they could look at the embryos one hour and see one thing and then the next hour they could be completely different, so I am not loosing all hope here. They have a lot of growing still to do.

With that said, we are going to do a Day 3 transfer, which will be tomorrow at 4:15. They decided to do Day 3 because if the embryos are fighting a little harder than they should be, the best place for them to be is in my uterus. I am glad for that, because then I know they are safe and warm and I will be giving them the best possible home. If for some reason, they do well over night and then embryologist changes her mind, then we are on for a Day 5.

Either way, I am optimistic and hopeful. It's all in God's hand's and I trust He will do what's best for our family.